Wednesday, January 25, 2012

Keeping it Real

Some friends of mine were discussing other people and their annoying habit of pretending life is always sunshine rainbows, and good stuff.  But as my friend said, we're real moms and we know its not always perfect. This is keeping it real.   I went downstairs to work on laundry, leaving the three girls in the playroom playing with blocks.  DH was in our bedroom working from home on his laptop.  I come upstairs (after about 30 mins) and this is what I found. Chocolate ice cream (melted) and used as finger paint all over my fridge. All 3 of them were in on it too. 



Yes they also got into condiment packages and pasta noodles.   And amazingly enough Daddy didn't hear a peep.



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Friday, January 6, 2012

Crazy Ramblings...

One of my friends and I were talking the other night and she says to me. "What doesn't kill me will make me stronger, right?"

To which I responded "That's what they tell me." But then I had to add the following "But sometimes I feel like I am the walking dead and I'm just too stubborn to give it up and lie down."


It's true. Some days its hard to face the uncertainty of things. But in the end you have to pull up your big girl panties, slap a smile on your face and get on with the day, because you can't just STOP.

When we discovered last year, just how bad things had gotten with Caitlyn's kidney I felt my world crashing. Being told that your child has almost lost their kidney, and will be catheterized multiple times daily for the rest of her life is not sunshine and lollipops and its not something you expect to hear about your 6 year old child.

To later discover that things have gotten so bad because of a doctors neglect? Well it broke this mama's heart. But it also spurned me in the direction of OTHER options. Second opinions. I contacted I don't know how many hospitals, doctors, clinics, foundations, looking for help. Looking for answers. But I couldn't tell you about much of it because I did it all in a blur. I met roadblock after roadblock after roadblock. But you know what? I found a different route. And that brought us to Boston. Which led us to Dr. Retik.

In May, On Mother's Day, I left my baby girls behind and boarded a plane with my husband and oldest daughter. I was gone almost a week. I headed to Boston full of uncertainty, worry, fear and a sadness at leaving my babies on Mother's day. I came home with peace, hope, and the knowledge that even if things did not get better, I was doing everything in my power.

In July, I headed back to Boston with new worries, fears, and sadness at leaving my babies this time for two weeks. When they took Caity back for surgery and I went with and held her hand and watched her fight the gas mask because of her fears, I wanted to break down then and there, but I didn't. I stroked her hand, I kissed her cheek, I spoke soothing words to her and I watched her eventually lose the fight and fall asleep. Then I went out into the hallway, pulled myself together and walked to the surgical waiting room. Where othere parents awaited news of their childs surgery. None of us spoke, but we still all knew. We had something in common, the fear of the unknown. The fear of something going wrong. The fear of losing our babies. But I couldn't let that fear take me down.

After her surgery while in the ICU, we waited. Waited. Waited. Watched all the familys around us, also waiting. Then we got admitted to a private room on the transplant floor. OOH Yippy Skippy! Then DH went back to the home we stayed in (mandatory that someone stay there every night or we lost our room) and I got the pleasure of staying with grouchypants. Grouchypants who wouldn't sleep. EVEN DRUGGED. It was a miserable experience for us both, I think. If you are a facebook friend you'll remember these posts


Rough night , she needs to sleep and try to eat, but right now she won't attempt either.

Having a rough go of it, pray for sleep for her (and me)



But we go through it and she healed and we came home.  We have noticed definite changes in her, but do not yet know how well the surgery was. 



Am I stronger, I don't know about that. But I do know one thing. I'm not dead yet. I'm too stubborn to give up fighting for better. Better for my girls.











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Tuesday, January 3, 2012

2012 --

I am hopeful that 2012 will be full of GREAT things!

3 things I've requested of 2012

  • 2 Kidney Miracles (One for each of my kidney girls) 
  • Another seizure free  year (For Bella)
  • Weight gain for Calleigh -- I'd LOVE to hit 20lbs soon!
See, I'm not asking for much.


This year I look forward to bringing more organization into my life. I'm planning to accomplish this through many means.

First and foremost somethign I've been meaning to make for a long while is a household binder. This will be important in case anything medical comes up, its handy for other people to know all involved if I am unable to be home long term.

The girls are going to get fancy schmancy new chore charts and a new chore system in place. With rewards and consequences. Mostly for the bigger girls, but Calleigh will be included.

I'm instituting Mommy's Ransom box. From now on when I find toys/books/other items in my kitchen/living room/dining room/anywhere else they do not belong, i will be taking them ransom until a task is completed to earn them back. I'm hoping this will help with the reminding every 2 seconds that toys do not belong all over my house.

Decluttering BIG TIME in every area of home.

Jay will be finishing the shed OR he will find a second job to pay for paying someone to finish the shed.

We will get the downstairs finished and move caity down there. At that point. Each child's toys will be in their own room and they will each be responsible for their own rooms therefore, they better not let their sisters make huge messes in their rooms, since currently they like to blame their sisters for every mess and don't own up to any themselves.


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Saturday, December 31, 2011

Closing out the year...........

2011 was a year of serious ups and downs for us. But we muddled through as a family and in some things it made us stronger.
It defintely showed me what my family is made of. And how dear our friends are to us.

So many of you, people I only know from online, people I'll likely never meet in the real world prayed for my babies. Continue to pray for my babies. I'll never be able to express my complete heartfelt gratitude.

We had SO many things sent/given to us by local friends/family and even local strangers. Because of all of you, we were able to take Caity to Boston for her surgery. You gave us help spirtially, financially, emotionally, and you helped Caity with her boredom. Board games, coloring books, video games, books, toys, money. All of it meant SO much to us.

It is my goal in 2012 to offer to another family the same assistance as much as I possibly can. It is so rough having children with medical problems, especially when they appear healthy outwardly and most people do not understand what you go through.


And to all the other Kidney Mamas -- a big pat on the back. I know how hard you work and how little appreciation you get at times.





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Friday, November 18, 2011

Been so very busy

Can't really go into all the details at this time, but We have been SO very very busy lately.

We've gotten to spend an extra lot of time with this lil fella.







He's getting so big and the girls have LOVED having in our house.   I, however, haven't really adjusted to having a baby in the house again.  But hey -- He sleeps better than mine ever did at this age.






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Saturday, October 1, 2011

I'd like to introduce you all to.....

My Little Cheerleader!


Caity and Gabby (her cheer group "leader" LOL)






So amazing to know that if we had opted to not do surgery, cheerleading wouldn't be a possibility for her.  She's also doing SO well in the structure of school. 



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Monday, September 19, 2011

Zhu Zhu Baby Giveaway

As I stated before in my post on the Zhu Zhu party  HERE

We have a Zhu Zhu baby to giveaway. 

I'm going to make it easy for you. To enter for your chance to win, you just have to go to the zhuniverse site and tell me what your favorite Zhu item is.

This giveaway will close Saturday Sept. 24, 2011.










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Wednesday, September 14, 2011

Saturday, September 10, 2011

ZhuBabies

We got the awesome opportunity from MomSelect and Zhu Babies to try out some new products. We celebrated Calleigh's birthday and then later got together with a few friends and enjoyed our new products! All of the kids had a blast.

We were sent the following
* 5 Zhu babies (each different)
* 2 Zhu babies outfits
* Zhu Zhu Babies activity playset
* Mrs. Lullaby Zhu Zhu pet


The girls -- LOVED it. From age 2 - 7 it was a complete hit.



The nursery center with Mrs Lullaby

They loved the way the zhu zhu powered the nursery center

She would not even let me clear the table off before jumping in

could not wait to play

The babies, I let each girl pick their fave

The outfits are so cute. The kids fought over dressing their baby. Will have to get more

The nursery center was easily put together and took maybe 10 minutes to do. 


All 5 girls enjoyed the Zhu Zhu party.  They thought it was so cool how the zhu zhu powered the nursery center and moved the beds and rocked the dog.  Giggles galore filled my house as they enjoyed their new toys.

The zhu babies are so cute.  We also loved the clothes and had fun changing their looks with the outfits.


Be sure to check out all the products the Zhuniverse has to offer  here



Look next week for a  giveaway post.  Thanks!


MomSelect/Zhu Zhu Pets provided us with the items. The opinions expressed are mine and the fun had was my chidlren's.





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Tuesday, August 30, 2011



Cucumbers, JT Bananas, cashews, applesauce and PB&J on a whole wheat sanwich thin, 2 colby jack cheese cutouts.





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Monday, August 29, 2011

New School year, new lunches...

Yes. My favorite part of Back to school (besides the quiet with big girls gone all day!) is lunches.

Here's a today's.

The big girls lunches.

This is Bella's.  PB sandwich, afew strawberry koala cookies, cheddar cheese cubes, cucumber spears and Jello.

Caity has the same, except she wanted colby jack cheese instead.

Callleigh has cucumber, cheddar cubes, and a kolache

Dried strawberries and bananas on top

Bella's lunch all packed up with her milk and banana

Caity's lunch all packed up with her milk and banana

3 lunches closed up with milks.




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Thursday, August 25, 2011

Today you are TWO!

Miss Calleigh Nicole. 





You are TWO!

You 

  • Say lots of things. 
  • Weigh 18lbs 7oz and are 31 inches tall
  • wear 12-18 month clothing
  • size 4 shoes
  • still have very little hair but what you do have is curly
  • LOVE your milk
  • are a total BLANKIE girl.  You are not picky about it, but you have to have a blankie. Though you do have favorites. 
  • get annoyed by your sisters often
  • are very independant
  • love to "cook" in your kitchen



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Tuesday, August 23, 2011

First week of school lunches.

Finally getting this post up. Here are some of the girls lunches from their first week of school











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